About
I want to start by saying I have planned nothing in this journey yet I am clearly on a path. The more I understood I did not have the answers the more I understand. Not understand in terms of finally knowing, understand in terms of freedom in embracing it all and bringing it all back to loving creation.
I have been doing healing work for the past 16 years. This came about while I was doing fashion styling, living in San Francisco.
I have always had an ability to see, feel, and even hear things about people. I did not know it was not about me, so I pretty much felt disconnected to my center most of the time. I was trying to manage others feelings as my own, this did not work so well.
The wonderful thing about experiencing others this way is that I really realized how much we are all mirrors of each other, not exactly but the essence that shows up for us to experience through others does reflect something we each carry in our beliefs.
I went to a women in Sonoma for a massage one day and when she started working I began to see colors and other things I had not seen since i was a child. She had a gift to align with the light which I resinated with. I found my heart and life started changing and I wanted to know myself. I became aware I had not been in myself for a long time. I went to her every weekend for a year. She massaged and we would talk about what came up and clear. This opened me up even more to my intuition, that was the good news/ bad news. More information was coming and I had no idea how to be in the world and what to do with it all. I did not have a regular meditation practice at the time.
I have always loved Mr Magoo because my life always seems to show up for me without me knowing it. I step and there is something there to guide me to the next place.
A friend was visiting from LA, she wanted to go to China Town to a Feng Shui shop she knew of. We walked over to the alley and as I turned the corner a feeling of home came over me. The shop was tiny and jammed full of statues, beads and incense ect. I was very confused by the energy and wandered aimlessly around. I looked up at one point and found myself standing in front of a large Buddhist alter. My friend rushed over and told me I was not suppose be there, a man appeared from the back and calmly said it was okay. My friend hustled me out saying it was not okay.
We went to the counter to pay for what my friend had found and I kept hearing to ask about Qi Gong, I was not going to until I felt a physical push forward and it just came out of my mouth. “Do you know of a Qi Gong Master I could work with”. The women looked at the man standing there and began to speak in Chinese, it all sounded and seemed frantic in their exchange. The man walked away, disappeared, and came back a few minutes later. He said “You do not need Qi Gong you need meditation”. Another man appeared from the back and stood by the alter watching. I was told to come back in a month and Raymond would work with me. I did not know who Raymond was but I felt so open and met I decided I would.
I returned a month later, as I walked up to the shop Raymond was standing outside and said I have been waiting for you. He took me to the back, I sat on the floor in front of the alter and he showed me how he wanted me to meditate. He did not speak english very well but it worked. I want to say I am not a buddhist but, I spent 2 years sitting in meditation in the back of that little shop with people giving offerings, prayer, and shopping while I sat in the middle of it all. This was amazing training and expansion for me. My insights became more clear and purposeful. Raymond was a Buddhist master from Burma, who had come to the US to integrate in a non traditional way through spiritual meditation which was from his Buddhist sect.
He said his master told him to come here, ” The days of having to study each scripture and sit outside of the masters cave are past. Things are more here now and moving fast, so a strong meditation practice is the path.” I would concur this is our journey not someone elses, although there are people who can help open your doors. Raymond opened up my spiritual connection in a profound way. I was not done there.
I now was getting direct information about people and their issues. Someone would come to a shoot and have back pain and I would be guided to walk over to them put my hand on them and ask what happened to them that morning or whatever the directive was. They would talk, cry, and clear. This is how I started. The process has expanded and I no longer touch. This became a pretty busy way to work on these shoots and I was getting very overwhelmed. This was getting to be a pretty busy way to live in general. I must say I loved doing it, and was learning so much every day.
I knew enough to take care of myself and had found a network chiropractor that I really loved. He has his own amazing gifts and was one place I could go , share and be met. One day I had a massage by someone I did not know and ended up doing work on him. I came out of there very upset because I was there for me and did not know how to stop the information that came in. It was his dead Great Grand Father and he was very pushy . I now know that if it is there and it is in the light, I can help but, it is not my responsablity.
There is a big difference in helping and taking things on as a duty. The light will take care of everyone I can just hold and help, so can you.
I did not understand this at the time and left there frustrated. I went to see the chiropractor and was clear I needed some sort of help and guidance. He handed me a name, Robert Waterman and said call him and sign up for a class. I was so in need and I trusted Peter I went home and called.
I signed up for a 6 month Mystery School in Santa Fe, NM. I had no idea what I was getting into, or who this guy was but, this seemed to be the way I did this. So I went and it was the beginning of a long and trusting mentor frienship for me.
This was the place that taught me about myself as love , light, and a creator. I attended 2 Mystery Schools and a Noetic Field Balancing program with Robert Waterman/ The Quimby Amenity Foundation. The noetic training really matched what was already happening and I continue to participate in training and workshops with Robert. The work expands beyond a technique but, to start an understanding , this is a good jumping off point. I am guided with each person and there are many things that are just for that person. Everyone has a different nuance, so that is the experience of the work.
I can only say that this organic life process is an amazing education. My teachers wether they have been formal or the people I live life with, have all been perfect and always evolving and expanding as life does.
The joy I find in my work with people is that you all are evolving and as this unfolds, nurtures, and aligns for you. I too align.
We are all reflections of our creations to each other, at least in essence. Through the process of opening up to my healing work with people, I am also clearing blocks and coming more into my true self. I committed to this work because I found that it is a way of life that comes naturally and lovingly.
I am grateful to keep evolving through myself and all of my clients and friends. I gave up the styling work and live in San Francisco. I travel to New York, Los Angeles, and SunValley with my work.
Love and Light
To be continued.
To be continued….
